Journal Use

Jan. 1st, 2020 01:48 pm
shireal: kadaj is devil (Default)
I realize I don't use this journal that often.

Most of the time, when I'm in a mood to share about my life and such, I'm usually not at a computer to share. When I want to tell the world about my day, it's usually while the day is happening.

I apologize if I haven't been active in communities I'm a part of. I'm trying to work on that. :) Please, bear with me.
shireal: kadaj is devil (Default)
For some reason, I'm a little wary of posting anything truly personal on here. I think the reason involves the cyberstalker bogeyman. The stories your parents and your media tell you. Don't give out info online. Someone could steal any information you give and use it in some way. Worse, you could be kidnapped, molested, and/or killed.

There are two sides to this.

=The chances of that happening to anyone are pretty slim.

=It still does happen even if it is uncommon or rare.

So the thought is still in my subconscious mind. Worry worry worry.

I'm not sure if I can change it. Or if I want to change it.

Rambling here. Stopping now.


Nov. 26th, 2008 06:35 pm
shireal: kadaj is devil (nightmare)

I'm going to try and post more about my life. So...

My mother has major depression. She's had it for most of her life.

The depression causes her to be paranoid. On bad days, she catches fragments of other people's conversations and assumes they are talking about her in a negative way. Even the most innocent conversation of strangers becomes a fragmented dagger to her. Maybe she'll overhear conversation about spiders and later replay it in her mind. Only this time the overheard conversation involved comparing her to a disgusting spider.

These imagined conversations make her even more depressed and cause a constant state of low self-esteem.

It's hard for her to make decisions on good days because she doubts herself.

My sisters and I were (and still are) Mom's life line. My aunt (her sister) is Mom's anchor.

The depression is only one facet of my mother.

She is also a kind person who loves animals. She enjoys taking nature hikes. Mom loves to write cheesy romance in the hope that it will someday be published. She's always there for a hug or a pat on the back.

Sometimes she was all that kept us afloat when I was little. If my aunt was the anchor, mom was the buoy.



May. 16th, 2008 12:06 am
shireal: kadaj is devil (Default)
Wow. I just remembered the password for this journal.

I created it a while ago, forgot about it, and created a new journal > [profile] devil_senshi
Now I'm trying to move everything from the other journal over here, but it might take some time.

First, I'm going to re-join all the communities I was part of.

Please don't mind the lack of posts, icons, theme, etc. I'm going to fix it up.[Bad username or unknown identity: ]


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